Q: When is the next book coming out?
A: Honestly, I don't know. It might take another year. Maybe two? I really don't know when I'll get back to work. 

Q: What have I been doing all this time?
A: The simple answer--I've been hibernating for the past 10 months. 

Q: What happened to you? 
A: I'm sorry for being quiet all this time. It was like I fell off the face of the Earth, huh? I do apologize for that. It was difficult for me to communicate what I was feeling or what was going on with me, so I just chose to run away from everything. 

Now, to answer the question directly--I had a mental breakdown, or a burn out, in February of 2020, right after the release of the last book. During this time, I tried to take on many new projects. I guess I overwhelmed myself. There was so much work to do and the work was never ending. I felt the work piling up, and it overwhelmed me, so I pushed it aside. But the longer I ignored the work, the more and more it piled up, and the more overwhelmed I became. 

So, that was the trigger of the initial burn out. About burn out, it's a strange sensation. It's like I am incapable of doing work. I am incapable of being productive. I reached out to a few friends to talk about this. They told me to take a vacation, so I started planning one. But then the pandemic hit and our first stay-at-home order was issued. So, there I was, stuck at home, unable to work or try to fix this burn out problem. 

This isn't the first time I've gone through burn out. I learned through the first time that going to the gym, playing volleyball, and jogging really helped me with recovering from burn out. But the pandemic kept me locked up at home. So, I became an extrovert stuck in an introvert's world. This brought about depression. I'm sure there are many others out there who experienced or are experiencing depression due to the pandemic. It's a tough time for everyone. A lot of fun has been sapped from the world. 

Anyway, I'm broken right now. I'm burnt out, plus I'm depressed from this pandemic. I bought a book on how to fix burn out. It basically taught me that I need to do activities I love and enjoy, activities that would give me energy and refill my gas tank. 

Oh, about that book, it used the analogy of your body being a car, and a car can't run/operate without gas. Burn out is basically your body running out of gas, so you can't go anymore or do work anymore. To replenish your gas tank, you need to do activities that give you energy. For me, it's being outside socializing, playing volleyball, going to the gym, hanging out with friends, meeting new people, etc. With the pandemic, I can't really do any of that. 

So, yeah, now you know why I'm going through burn out and why I'm depressed and why I'm having a hard time recovering from this mess. 

Q: Why do I want to stream on Twitch?
A: I thought it'd be a cool and fun way to meet and interact with my readers. And since I can't seem to write or do work right now, I figured this was the least I could do. Also, I think it'd be a lot of fun to play games together online. 

Q: Why I don't use Discord?
A: I've always been shy about putting myself out there, whether it's physically or vocally. But ever since I discovered Rec Room VR and it helped me socialize, I've gotten over speaking online. This kinda led me to Twitch, actually.